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My Week #4


my new baby Luna! // obsessed with beans on toast crisps & mcdonalds mozzarella sticks // my new glasses // pastel sunset // flowers from mum // wrecking this journal with my boyfriend 
 

It's been such a long time since I've done one of these! I just always found that there weren't enough photos to make posting worth it, but this week was so busy that I finally have some pictures to share.
 

A Day At The Stables



Sunday


"Saturdays are for adventure; Sundays are for cuddling."
 

Aztec, Sunni & Penguin

 

If you follow me on Instagram, you'll have noticed that I popped up a photo of three lckle baby chickens a few weeks ago. I also mentioned them here on my blog, but if you didn't catch that post then let me fill you in: Aztec, Penguin and Sunni are three chicks that I'm fostering over the summer for my sister's school. I've had them for nearly one month now and I've got to know their personalities so thought I'd do a whole post talking about them.

Recently.



I'm back! After a very sudden absence, I know. I kind of zoned out from the world for a few days because to be honest I was just feeling like complete crap but I'm finally ready to get back to blogging. I haven't been doing much other than tucking myself in bed and watching multiple series of Greys Anatomy but I thought I'd update you guys on what I've been up to to make up for such a rude disappearance.
 

Saying Goodbye.

 
Yesterday, after a week of non-stop searching for her, I was informed that my cat had been run over and sadly passed away. Needless to say, I am completely devastated. Poppy had been my pet for nearly 6 years - we adopted her sister, Frankie, with every intention of just bringing home one kitten. But we fell in love with Poppy and brought her home, too. She was the first pet that had ever been mine. And it's not like we had a mother-daughter relationship like I know some people have with their pets, we just both adored each other. After a bad experience with a cat as a child, I've always been wary of them. And Frankie and Bailey (my other cats) and myself have always kept a mutual but respectful distance from each other for this reason. But it was so bizarre, because Poppy was always so careful around me. I'd never been scratched by her, ever, not even when she was a kitten. When she snuggled up with me at bedtime, she understood that if my eyes closed that I wouldn't smooth her anymore and she would just settle down and sleep. If I was crying, she would come up to me, snuggle up tight and rub her cheeks on my face. I miss her desperately. Sitting down in the living room last night, I looked around the room and saw that Frankie was sat with my mum and my puppy Thor was curled up with my boyfriend, but where Poppy should have been with me she wasn't. She was absolutely beautiful and had the most gorgeous temperament. She's completely irreplaceable.
 
I'm sorry if this post was a bit depressing for you guys, but it was such a shock for me and because she was taken away by the PDSA before I could see her, this is kind of the only way I can say goodbye. After reading this, I hope you run to your pets and cuddle them, because that is definitely what I would be doing with her if I could see her one last time.
 
xx

Bristol Harbour Festival Photo Diary

The Perfect Gift


 
To me, the best gift is one that is unexpected and filled with thought. I mentioned on Twitter that at the beginning of this week my boyfriend went away on a work trip for three days. Naturally I wasn't expecting him to bring me something back - it wasn't like he went on holiday or anything - but upon his safe return he did have a little something for me.

My Week #3

I dyed my hairrrr! // fostering some baby chickens // my boyfriend & I at the fun fair // Lush bubble bars // beautiful beach sunset // ingredients for my curry recipe

Holiday Photo Diary

 

My Week #2



 
The Fault In Our Stars movie tickets // Yankee Tarts for my dad's birthday present // The Maze Runner review notes // Lush The Comforter Bubble Bar // New Primark Flatforms // Reese's Peanut Butter Cups
 

My Week #1


Current TBR stack // Currently Reading: The Maze Runner by James Dashner // First attempt at drawing! // my beloved Deathly Hallows necklace // my fave Shakeaway // Primark & Lush haul
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This week. It's been a bizarre one. Monday was stressful/exciting as it was my last day at college! I finally signed off my final two practical assessments and now it's official - I'm fully qualified in Beauty Therapy Level 2 & 3! I'm not planning on taking much away from the course, aside from the skincare and massage which is something I'd be interested in specialising in if I ever took the beauty-route for my career. The rest of the week was quite mellow, although there were a few mental breakdowns scattered across the days. I took two trips into town which I was really proud of - my anxiety is a little temper-mental with large crowds - and I picked up a few lovely things in Primark, as well as the Comforter Bubble Bar in Lush which I frickin' adore. Probably one of my favourite Lush products. I also finished Insurgent by Veronica Roth and started The Maze Runner by James Dashner. I'm not planning on putting up a review for Insurgent as practically everyone has read it, but I must say it's a million times better than Divergent, both plot- and writing-wise. I wont say much on The Maze Runner because I'll hopefully be uploading a post on it as soon as I finish!
 
I hope you all had a wonderful week!
 
Posts this week:
- The Post Education Panic - I talked about the thoughts/feelings/pressures that accompanied my end of college milestone.
 - The Reading Habits Tag - I joined in with the Reading Habits Tag & discussed my favourite ways to read.
 
 


The Post-Education Panic

 
Yesterday marked my last official day in education. For those of you who didn't know, I studied Beauty Therapy for two years starting September 2012, using up my last two free education years. I didn't have much of an interest in the beauty side of things - I chose the course as I'd be put into situations dealing with the general public and I thought it would help me battle my anxiety issues. Two years later, I've finally finally finished the course and I was overwhelmed by the sheer fact that I'd completed it whilst dealing with those issues that still cling to me today.
 
So yes, at first, I was ecstatic. But as the night crept on, the question of 'what am I going to do with my life?' well and truly began to circulate. And I have to admit, it's giving me some problems.
 
All around me, people my age are getting jobs and cars and going on group holidays with their friends. My anxiety doesn't allow me to get into a car without some panic and I wouldn't even dream of going abroad with just a few girlfriends, so it's making me feel really unsettled that everyone else seems to be carrying on with all the things I'm told I should be doing. But I know what my limits are and I know what I can handle, so why should I, when I'm already trying my best, push myself too hard for things I don't even want?
 
I saw this quote on Pinterest that made me think of things a different way:
 
And it made me realise that I shouldn't really care what other people think and expect me to do. It's my life. And no, I have no idea what I'm going to do with it yet. And I don't know where I want to work and I don't know where I want to be. But I'm only 19 years old and I only have one official day of non-education life behind me. And I'm thinking (and hoping) that I'll have some time to figure things out before I'm pushed into adulthood. There are things I need to work out - my anxiety being one of them - but I'm taking one step at a time and as one of my favourite quotes from JRR Tolkien says "Little by little, one travels far." Trying to figure everything out at once is confusing and overwhelming, so I think it's best to just work out the things that can be sorted and then go from there. And in the meantime, troll Pinterest for inspirational quotes.
 
What are your guys' thoughts on this topic? Do you ever feel pressured to do things other people are doing? I'd love to hear your views!